It's come to a point where is hard to stand to everthing. I mean, I'm a bit tired of being lonely because I've always been one of these people that shares everything, talks about anything, smiles, etc. I've learn to live by my own, but I guess as any other human being I need somebody, but is really hard for me to find that someone. I don't really know why.
The issue gets worse know because I'm worried about my health, I have some test going on about, I don't know, I might be ill. That scares me a lot. And I'm so scared that I need to share it with someone, but when it first came to this friends of mine, they didn't even asked, and when they finally did, they didn't asked much, or worried much. Maybe it's me that I usually expect the worse when these things appear, but I'm just scared, I really am.
Then, just a few hours later, I went shopping. I don't really like shopping, I don't really care, actually. But today, well. Primark, I needed the biggest size in the store to get the trousers I wanted. Shana, or friday proyect, my usual size fits me a little bit smaller than it usually does. I'm not worried about this, I've never been. I'm not really fat. At least that was what I thought. But, what if I'm really being unhealthy? What if there is a real problem here? That scares me even more.
I don't usually talk about these issues, but today I'm too scared to hide. And really, I'm not saying this to no one, because no one will read this, but whatever. I write and I'm free.